Reading about a random rant on someone's blog....
sometimes you could become so insignificant to someone you wanted so badly that it all becomes unecessarily signififcant....
Spoke to J for about an hour straight through an entire party snuck away in a corner with everyone throwing us curious looks
But I couldn't care...Here was a guy speaking to me about how pathetic it is to know someone loves you, someone you share a compatibility with so good enough that you doubt you will ever find it again. J is going through a testing time because he is in a long distance relationship and he really likes this girl but the time period and distance don't seem feasible. I told J he reminded me of someone I lost recently, lost to miles and lack of conviction. Just hearing him talk about fidelity and attachment was enough to want to encourage him to do whatever suits him for now. And that was hypocritical, because I've been the girl on the other end, had it all offered and had it all taken away because of someone being uncertain or simply not interested in seeing what they initially believed worth pursuing to it's logical end (whatever that might have been)
I heard him out , answered questions about my past, immediate and further back....and also committed myself to being his DP/ cameraperson for a pilot of an wildlife series (it never hurts to fantasize)
And as I stepped out of his car, we shook hands, agreed to do a meal and then these words tumbled out
j: "A lot of bad things happen, but life has too many beautiful things to offer. So try to remind yourself of that"
r: "Let's touch base in 5 years and then see if that's true"
